So this is a blog post that I knew was in me somewhere deep inside and just never could imagine what that would look like! And here it finally is. I think it's been here for some time, I just never felt inspired to write it because it's been feeling kind of normal for a while. What is the big deal with feeling happy and content was what was prohibiting me from thinking too much about it. And yet, every day for a few months, I am still constantly amazed at the lightness of being that is my everyday feeling. Why do I say lightness of being? Because that's the best way to explain it. I don't feel heavy and burdened down with negative thoughts or pain in my heart or dark clouds. I remember wondering if this state that I'm in was even possible. I would work every day to think positively, to be consciously grateful for my life and what I have, to count my blessings, to negate the things that I felt I was missing. I thought that this would be my constant daily work. I dared to hope that one day it wouldn't have to be such an up hill walk, and then it leveled off at some point, and it was like I didn't even notice...until now. I guess I kept waiting to feel that drag again. I kept thinking that I would have to battle my thoughts soon again. I kept feeling out my insides for any glimpse of pain. Nothing happened. Only peace and happiness. Excitement over my life is here. Love surrounds me. Please don't think I am bragging. Holy Shit!! Far from it. I'm just letting you know that it's fucking real!! LOL! What did my work look like?? Reading positive things, yoga, meditation, being kind, eating healthy, shutting the negative voices up, believing that I'm wonderful (along with everyone else on this planet), removing guilt and shame, doing things that make me happy, not doing things that I don't want to do, giving myself permission to be happy, knowing that I'm worthy of everything I want...etc. So the question is, does everyone else's work look the same? I don't know. I can't imagine that the same things that make me happy, makes everyone else happy so it can't look exactly the same...but it might have the same template! Also, it wasn't easy. Not at all. But nothing worth having ever comes easy does it? So don't expect this most precious state to be any different. The moment we start feeling sorry for ourselves because this is too hard, is the moment we stop and tell ourselves to put our big girl/boy panties/underwear and keep at it. Learn to rest and then keep working. I'm so damn excited for the rest of this year and I just cannot wait to see what it will bring. I've learned that I'm a co-creator in this life of mine and the other half is pure unadulterated LOVE, God, the Universe, I AM...whatever you want to call that beautiful wonderous Being of Light that surrounds us all, and I can do whatever the hell my heart desires! Doesn't that sound wonderful and amazing? I hope everyone finds their happiness and joy. My heart and love goes out to all of you. Remember everything is going to be ok and this is just a tiny snippet together in this game of life through eternity.
Peace and Love babes,
Lili
