Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Getting lost

I realize that I haven't blogged in a while...just no inspiration, no ideas, no clear path.  So, I guess I'm a little lost.  I say a little, because I'm nowhere close to being where I was about 10 months ago, when I was in total darkness, lost, consumed by nothing.  But today, right now, I just feel a little lost.  This time, though, I don't think it's such a bad thing.  What happens when you get lost?  You ask around for directions, you look for landmarks, you experience new things, you find paths that you've never traveled before...you even might get distracted, for a time, from that which you were trying to get to.  You get distracted by something interesting, a beautiful scenery, an interesting person you might meet.  I think that's where I might be right now.  I will have to look around my life a little more to appreciate those types of distractions... because even though I might not be exactly where I think that I should be, I still have my familiar landmarks.  Kind of like the mountains of El Paso.  Where, no matter where you go in this city, you can still look up and know if you're east, west, north or south of those mountains.  You might not know what street you're on, but you know if you just head in the right direction you'll eventually get to I-10.   So I'll look up for now.  I  know where God is, I know where Victor is, I know where my family is and where my friends are and I'll just keep heading forward and enjoy the scenery here in "a little lost" for a while more.  I will believe that even know I may not know exactly where I'm at...I do know that I'll eventually get back on the right path, right back to me.