Mental - Thank you, thank you Silence ~Alanis Morissette

Lyrics: 


How bout getting off of these antibiotics
How bout stopping eating when I'm full up
How bout them transparent dangling carrots
How bout that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How bout me not blaming you for everything
How bout me enjoying the moment for once
How bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
How bout grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down

How bout no longer being masochistic
How bout remembering your divinity
How bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How bout not equating death with stopping

Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence

yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh

I posted this video and the lyrics to it because there was a long time during this past year when I couldn't get my mind to be silent, to enjoy the moment, to not let my thoughts try to make me go crazy.  Sometimes, I would actually have to stop and yell at the top of my lungs, "MIND....BE QUIET...STOP!!!"  I could not get it to stop thinking over the things that had happened, over the things I could have done differently but didn't, over the things that were said to me, done to me...etc.  You know where I've been, right?  Or maybe you're there right now.  I pray for you if you are there right now..."Lord, give my friend, my sister, my brother, peace and quiet right now...Amen".  Then finally one morning I woke up...and there it was...silence, beautiful, wonderful, peaceful silence.  I began to cry.  Then this song came to my mind.  I downloaded right then and there and read the lyrics while I listened to it.  Victor came into the bedroom and saw me crying and probably thought something was wrong.  I remember just telling him..."honey, I have it again, I have peace."  I played that song for the rest of the weekend.  Every verse was a reminder of how God can use all the bad things that we've experienced to help us appreciate what we have.  The fear, the terror, the disappointments can all help us get back on the right track to where we're really supposed to be.  They actually help speed up the process because with them we run back to God and tell him..."i'm sorry, I've messed up, PLEASE show me the way, show me your Way...because my way only led me to destruction (those transparent dangling carrots!)"

Now, I'm going to tell you a really fast way and then the hard way to get silence.  The fast way is to help, for the torture of the mind, right now, and the long way, is the hard way, but it's the permanent one.  The fast way, is to do a really complicated yoga move.  The one that brought me quick relief, when I was in that noise, was this yoga pose.  It works so beautifully.  Stare at the clouds, at the mountains, your favorite picture...concentrate on your breathing, in and out through your nose...grab your leg, extend your arm and let your eyes focus.  You will get silence, you have to have silence in order to to be able to maintain this pose :o)!
Now the hard way...the long way...you work towards balance in your life.  You eat right, you exercise, you pray, you meditate, you read your bible, you are good to people, you forgive people and you feed your mind with educational, interesting thoughts, books, music and other things (like this blog....just kidding!)  I promise, you achieve balance, and you will have longer periods of silence, joy, peace...happiness.  Let me know if you need anything, remember....I'm here on this earth to help and to be helped by you.  Love you and thank you Lord for another day!!